A Handshake with Life

As of Now...

What do I really want out of Life?

I want Life to work through me. To me, that means that I don't get caught up in "trying to figure it out," but rather surrender to LIfe by staying present and see what action arises out of that.

What's my current situation?

I am not decided in my career or rather there are a couple of things that I want to pursue and am not sure how to go about it. I've been pursuing creative writing for about five years now. I've started and finished several ideas, some I tossed and some I did not finish. I allowed fear and/or doubt to come in the way and through that somehow convinced myself that I should forget about creative writing all together and just concentrate on my other passion, which is to teach or coach inner peace, which is something I'd do for free any place, any time. All the while I continue getting inspired about all these ideas for stories, "how to guides," and sometimes unrelated business ventures. And that's when anxiety arises. What should I do? Which one should I choose? What should I be working on currently?

Hence, I would like to surrender all trying and allow Life to guide me. But in order for Life to guide me, I need to make sure that I have a good relationship with Life.

As in any new relationship, it's important to shake hands first. My intention this week is to shake hands with Life and say, "Hey, I'm here. I'm ready to start a healthy relationship with you."

What does it mean to have a healthy relationship with Life?

To me, it means that I do not resist whatever happens. Let's say I made a commitment to research life coaching, but when I sit down at the computer, I feel inspired to write instead, I'm going to go with the inspiration and write. And the reason for that is because I'm surrendering to Life and that is obviously what it wants to do through me at this moment.

What kind of a person do I really want to be in this situation?

I want to be at peace with whatever I choose in the moment. I don't want to second guess every move I make. In order to do that, I vow to make that choice every time anxiety, fear, or doubt arises.

How can you join me in creating me this week?

First of all, by shaking hands with Life, I'm also shaking hands with you and visa versa. And second of all, you can join me in not resisting whatever happens this week.

Together we can remind ourselves "Just for this week, I won't resist what happens."

Next week, I'll check in and see what happens.

Thank you.

The Not Knowing

"If you want to be given anything, give everything up." - Tao Te Ching

The not knowing invites all knowing. I can't write if I think I know something. I have to step away from the computer when expectation arises. "All is vanity." I had to take a deep breath and watch my thoughts just then because resistance arose. Resistance permeates the body like poison. The body says, "you're messing with my perfect chemistry, whatever you brought in here, get it out of here." I sit down on the invisible chair behind me and cleanse my system. Then, I sit down on the actual chair, close my eyes, and breathe.

I place my writing books back on the shelf and I write from not knowing. I put away all my ideas and work from a place of no goal. I clean out all thoughts of what I think this blog should be about and write "Who am I?" That way I will never forget to look at the deeper "I" that resides within all of us.

The Truth

What is the truth?

Too many words will never be the truth. Then why start a blog you may ask? Good question. I'm going to let these posts speak for themselves. The truth is not in what I think, but in the thinking that happens through me. I have no control over how much or how little wants to be written in each post. I'm going to get out of the way in order for what wants to be written to be written.

Thank you.

Who am I?

Who am I?

I've been lost too many times that a clear-cut answer would not cut it. I'm dedicating an entire blog to it.